In the home stretch!

I am 38 weeks 6 days today. We had a doctor appointment yesterday and found out I am 1 cm dilated and 80% effaced. It came with mixed emotions. First, I was in shock and I think my first thought was "holy crap". Second, I'm nervous as I've been this whole pregnancy. Third, I was excited. I really love my doctor. She's been really great about "playing the game" with me as she says. We really don't want an induction or c-section so she's letting me go as far as 1 week after my due date to have him. After that we get to have another chat. So we're happy with how everything is going so far.
 
Everyone keeps asking me if I am excited and ready. I always feel bad when people ask me this because I can't say I am over the moon excited. I'm scared out of my mind! I've said it before, labor doesn't scare me (as much), but I am scared about after the fact. I have a few things I've told Jay I am most worry about. He shares the whole anxiety about not having the first clue as to what we're doing. Everyone says we'll be great parents, I joke if we don't break this one, we'll talk about having a second one. My next worry is for me and postpartum. I know the "baby blues" will probably happen but because I was diagnosed with depression as a kid (I still don't think that is 100% correct) and I deal with anxiety on a regular basis I really fear postpartum is going to get a hold of me. I tell myself everyday worrying gets you no where but when with anxiety it will consume me some days and I really have to fight it. So this is what I have to keep telling myself as we face this new chapter in life:

Matthew 6:25-34
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."